New Year. Uh-huh.

Yeah yeah yeah, it is "New Year." I KNOW! I have seen all the Weight Watchers and Jenny Craig ads on tv, I have read the gym ads in the paper, I have overheard woman sitting in bars, downing calorie-laden cocktails, talking about their resolutions. "This is the year I am gonna lose those twenty extra pounds."

SHUT UP!

What is the big damn deal about New Years Day anyway. Why does one day symbolize change and the other 364 are suppose to follow in its footsteps. What if you have a fairly boring New Years Eve, full of nothing really special and a New Years Day with no resolutions! Uh-oh. You next year is going to FAIL! You will not get anything accomplished and you will wind up exactly where you are or WORSE!

Bullshit.

To be honest I think one's New Year should be your birthday. I mean, Jan. 1st is not NEW YEAR to me. I am still the same age in years until March 7th. Birthday = New Year in my book, but I still don't go all crazy making resolutions. Resolutions themselves have their basis in religion, particularly for Christians during Lent
and the Jewish Rosh Hashanah, and as we all know, pretty much anything coming from these religions must be based in GUILT. I don't know about you, but if I want to make changes in my life I do not want them to motivated by guilt or the pressure put on me by a silly date on the calender.

I would like change and positive growth to be a constant ongoing process my whole life. I would like to learn and experience and flower every single day. Which leads me to the admission that this past year I have pretty much FAILED in this pursuit. Ok, not failed per say, but stagnated. I let myself get lazy and lethargic and gluttonous. I am not happy with a lot from the last half a year or so, and THAT is my motivation to change.

Now looking back on my blogs I can see the pit falls (well some of them) and the strengths and I am very happy to have it as a road map, but ideally what is missing is the JOY in the attempt to better myself, and that, I think, makes all the difference in the world.

So from now on I am going to enjoy getting healthy. Enjoy the process and try not to be so impatient when things don't change immediately. It took me many years of bad habits to get like this, and I need to just relax and accept the hard work and perseverance needed to get where I would like to be. And even though it is hard, I must endeavor to have a blast with it, for if I do not, I will only be as miserable as I was not trying (albeit a lot more unhealthy)

So I am not gonna let this New Years pressure get to me...today is a new day and so is tomorrow, and each day I will try my damnedest to be healthy and happy and be the change I want to see in myself.